♥

Saturday, August 30, 2008 { 11:53 PM }

You, you, you alone. You shall reign in my heart. You are the one whom I longed for; without you, I'm incomplete. I will give everything for you and I will give up everything for you, myself as well as all that I possess. I will live for you alone, and I will work for you alone. And I will wait for you - it doesn't matter how long. I will always be patient with you. I will never force you, not even by words. I want to share with you all that I possess. I want to listen to what you have to say. There is nothing I want to undertake without your blessing. I want to remain always by your side. I love you.

What can I say? I think that I'm glad that I'm kinda busy this few days, at least I have something to do rather than sitting at home and be sad. Today seems like a long day, first time I didn't feel like talking much. I couldn't stop thinking about us. I am really very sad that I fail to make you happy, instead I did it the other way round. I'm sorry, this is not i want things to be. I couldn't do anything now other than asking you to give us a chance again. I felt useless. I know that you won't give me a chance, I hurt you badly. I don't want to end it. Is there really nothing that we can do?

Thanks BenGoh for cheering me up even though you, youself are in no better situation. Thanks Fifi too. Though not much words are exchanged between us but I can feel that you are comforting me. Thhanks Celina too for being there for me. :)

Graciousstar

I will be all that you want

And get myself together

cause you keep me from fallling apart

All my life

I want to be with you forever

And get you through the day

And make everything ok

I'm sorry...

I wish that I will get a chance...

Friday, August 29, 2008 { 2:29 PM }

Came back from chalet. Feel kinda tired but i dun wanna sleep...

First day, we went to aloha loyang to check in. Our chalet was like WAY inside. I was thinking to myself how am i suppose to walk all the way to costal sand by myslef!? Anyway the chalet was nice and kinda dirty but luckily we sat for 1 day only and we going to move to another bungalow as our orginal one that we booked before was being damged by a tree. I went over to costal sand in the evening. I finally get to see my secondary school mates. I super duper miss them! I went to talk to them to catch up on them, to see how are they doing now. Just glad that everything seems fine for them. Then later Sulan, Boyfriend and Sihua wanted to comeover to myy chalet to "crash the party". Haha... At night at aloha, all of us were in the girls room and we started chatting and WeiJing started to tell us some ghost stories. Shaun added some "effects" by offing the lights and Salih join in by making some funny noises. It was fun though...

Second day, didn't really sleep the whole night. I think i had 4-5 hours of sleep. Keep waking up and sleep and waking up and sleep. Then when the clock strikes 12, we started moving to the other bungalow which was much cleaner. We went cycling and also swimming. Then we had bbq. One word: FUN! After bbq, we went drinking as WeiJing brought some liqour. I went to drink it pure. One shot for each bottle. Then I started to be to feel a little heavy. I drank somemore but mix with other drinks like coke. I didn't get drunk but I felt like it :P

Yeap, it was fun. However, I'm not really happy. Guess I screwed up everything. I hate it but is there anyway or anything I can do to make it back to the way it was? I'm sorry, I damaged your heart. I want to fix it but will you allow me to do that? Will i be able to fix it?

~~Photos will be uploaded...soon...~~

Graciousstar

I dun want to end it... please

Sunday, August 24, 2008 { 8:02 PM }

I'm kinda tired right now...not enough sleep i guess. Was playing with fifi, hobart and my bro last night. Then have to wake up early today coz have duty.

We had a weird session in DG today. When Isabelle came in, she started talking about animal sex. Then almost the whole session we are talking about it. Ilona came with Qiqi today. Qiqi is super duper adorable! I super want to cuddle her, and squeeze her, and...nvm :P

After service, went for lunch with daniel, weiyong, pamela, amanda, maung and mark. We had a meeting together to discuss about the youth gathering we going to have this coming saturday and also for the youth camp at the end of this year. We took quite some time discussing. Pamela, fifi and I will be in charge of publicity for the youth camp. We will have to advertise our camp to the people. haha...

Now I got more activities to do. Getting more busy, with both dance and church. I don;t mind having quite a number of activities in my hands now, even if it means to stress me out, but I just want to make sure I have enough time for my friends. So far I only meet mages and baron only for my secondary school friends >_<>Super duper miss them sia. Esther, Pearl, SiHua, Arena, YeeMing, YeeLeng & more...

Now I have a slight problem. Wed, thurs and Fri I have 2 chalets going on. One by W15E and the other by YCKSS. Sian, I have to run two places at once sia. Coz I love both of them and I just cant afford to lose one out. One at costal sand pasir ris and the other at aloha loyang pasir ris. How am I suppose to travel from one place to another??? Just hope that I can work something out...

sian...i dun feel right...

I want you to want me...

Graciousstar

If you got the time I'll make it

If you got the vibe we'll make it

I'll do that, I'll do that

If you want to dance lets move it

If you want to play lets play it

I'll do that, I'll do that

And I get on up and I get on down

And I play the fool when I act the clown

You know that I'd do anything for you.

If you want the worldYou got it

If you want the girlYou got it

I'll do that baby, I'll do that

So much for you

If you want it allYou got it

Can you hear me call?You got it

I'll do that baby, I'll do that

So much for you

If you got the gameLet's win it

If you got the moodLet's bring it

I'll do that, I'll do that

If you got the songJust sing it

If you sing it wrongJust wing it

I'll do that, I'll do that

You get on up and you get on down

You make me smile when I want to frown

You know that I'd do anything for you.

Shake it

If you want the worldYou got it

If you want the girlYou got it

I'll do that baby, I'll do that

So much for you

If you want it allYou got it

Can you hear me callYou got it

I'll do that baby, I'll do that

So much for you

Cause if you want it

You've gotta have it

Gotta feel it and believe it

To achieve it

And if you know it

You've gotta shout it scream it

Get it once you show it

Get your way

If you want the worldYou got it

If you want the girlYou got it

I'll do that baby, I'll do that

So much for you

If you want it allYou got it

Can you hear me call?You got it

I'll do that baby, I'll do that

So much for you

Saturday, August 23, 2008 { 9:01 PM }

Ok time for some decent post after sooo long :P

Monday

Went to Marina square with Wes, Keegan, Fifi and I. Just walk around, nothing much happen. Quite emo that day though but i choose not to remember why...

Wes and Keegan

Fifi and I

Singapore flyer

The aquarium

Tuesday

Had b-boy lesson by Larry. Learnt elbow freeze. Forget it, the only freeze that I can do is baby freeze. Haiz...don't worry, practice! :) We also had one on one battle. It was quite scary as my first opponent was Fifi! I only won one battle out of four lah. I still not used to the battling thingy lahh. Anyway the lesson was VERY long. From 3pm- 7pm. Can you imagine how long the battle take?

Wednesday

Wes and Keegan came over to Fifi's house. We didn do anything much. Just played play station and also hammys. Then we also headed to Junction 8 to play arcade games and also had our dinner.

Wesley caught this from the toy machine in arcade. I called this sitch, little wesley! haha...

Thursday

Went back to YCKSS to collect our certivicates. Everthing was nice except for the results :P

Finally get to see old friends! Mages and Baron. Too bad most of them got back their o level certificates and also some of them couldn't make it so there is only four of us. Anyway had a really nice time with them, catching up on how each other is doing. We also went to watch money not enough 2. Jack Neo now likes to make his movie sad sad sia. haha...Thanks Baron for treating us the movie tickets :) And also happy one month anniversary with lame lame. :) haha...

My certificate

Friday

Had dance lessons but Gin couldn't make it so the whole day was for us to discuss our upcoming junior showcase. My team hor, smsed me to be there by 2pm and in the end everyone was late. I was with Jason's team the whole time until we all headed to the dance studio. Now my team had done most of the things liao, which is the music, the plot, costume, mask and the budget list. Now the crucial thing is our choreo. Yesterday we learnt one new set of choreo and we also had done our veri first part of our dance which is our intro. hehe!

Saturday

Nothing much today. Supppose to have an outing with SEG friends but it seems that nobody going, so....yea..Had singing practice. We are going to be on duty tomorrow. Both me and fifi are meeting Wei Yong for lunch also. Hopefully can meet Celina for dinner. Seems like Daddy also want to ask me out. Sian...think I need more than 24 hour sia...haha

Graciousstar

We want to live forever for the same reason

that we want to live tomorrow.

Why do we want to live tomorrow?

It is because there is some one who loves you,

and whom you want to see tomorrow, and be with, and love back

Thursday, August 21, 2008 { 12:21 PM }

好好爱^O^
词：郑昭仁曲：李志源
能不能好好爱^O ^ 手牵手一起走
不管时间多久都要在同一国
隐藏版快乐天空我分你咬一口
只想和你一起到永久
我喜欢收集微笑没有原因
这世界本来就没有个道理
寂寞它跟我从来没有联络
是非题选择题或放弃
做决定向左向右需要勇气
也可以做个闹鐘全部归零
反正我花不完的就是年轻
对不对好不好没关係
而我最想一起的就是你
能不能好好爱^O ^ 手牵手一起走
不管时间多久都要在同一国
隐藏版快乐天空我分你咬一口
只想和你一起到永久

Graciousstar

Pls tell me that things will not be worsen...

Monday, August 18, 2008 { 12:40 AM }

Just to let you know...I'm sad now

Sunday, August 17, 2008 { 9:11 PM }

Went blog hopping then saw this from joycelyn's blog. Find it interesting, iwent to do it...haha

Your view on yourself:
You are down-to-earth and people like you because you are so straightforward. You are an efficient problem solver because you will listen to both sides of an argument before making a decision that usually appeals to both parties.

The type of girlfriend/boyfriend you are looking for:
You are a true romantic. When you are in love, you will do anything and everything to keep your love true.

Your readiness to commit to a relationship:
You are ready to commit as soon as you meet the right person. And you believe you will pretty much know as soon as you might that person.

The seriousness of your love:
You are very serious about relationships and aren't interested in wasting time with people you don't really like. If you meet the right person, you will fall deeply and beautifully in love.

Your views on education
Education is less important than the real world out there, away from the classroom. Deep inside you want to start working, earning money and living on your own.

The right job for you:
You're a practical person and will choose a secure job with a steady income. Knowing what you like to do is important. Find a regular job doing just that and you'll be set for life.

How do you view success:
You are afraid of failure and scared to have a go at the career you would like to have in case you don't succeed. Don't give up when you haven't yet even started! Be courageous.

What are you most afraid of:
You are afraid of having no one to rely on in times of trouble. You don't ever want to be unable to take care of yourself. Independence is important to you.

Who is your true self:
You are mature, reasonable, honest and give good advice. People ask for your comments on all sorts of different issues. Sometimes you might find yourself in a dilemma when trapped with a problem, which your heart rather than your head needs to solve.

What is your personality love style:
You desire a love that will last forever. You are quite serious about finding this type of love, and that's why you think carefully about the men that you meet before deciding whether you could really love them. You don't just develop a crush on someone overnight: you look at a person's personality and other aspects of their life before deciding to form an attachment. If a guy doesn't meet your expectations, you would rather be alone. Your love has to be perfect. Be careful though, you could be missing out on some worthy relationships because your standards are so high.

What type of personality do you have?
Kind and Gentle
Your kindness is your charm - you are also gentle and sweet. Everybody likes to be around people with your personality. Like a psychologist, people like to talk to you to discuss their problems because you are proper and discrete, as well as confident. You look mature and people respect you. People with this kind of character are few and far between.

What does friends means to you?
You value your friendships: 65%
You love your friends very much - so much so that it's actually quite a worry. You may not be able to cope very well when you do lose somebody's friendship. You are a very sensitive and fragile person, and are therefore likely to get upset easily. You care for your friends and are willing to do anything that they ask you to do. Sometimes this can make your friends think that you are a bit of a nuisance. Nevertheless, people do really love you because your highest priority is your friends.

Graciousstar

Quite true :)

Friday, August 15, 2008 { 11:00 PM }

Sian...nowadays will be quite busy with dance. Why do they have to roped my holidays away? We are currently preparing for the upcoming performance which is junior showcase. We have to plan a story for our dance, the choreo, the music, the meeting time, the costumes, the masks, the budget we have, the stage, the effects... SO MUCH TO DO SO LITTLE TIME. All i can say now is that lucky dance is my interest as i am willing to commit my time in, if not, well, i don't know what will happen though...

Wanted to make use to this time holiday to catch up with old friends and build stronger bonds with new friends. Guess that what I have planned is all to the drained so is my plan on getting a job. Seriously do think that i need. I want to go mission trips again, promised to go taiwan for celina, and also for my 18th birthday. If i don't save up now, there is seriously no way i gonna get all of this. Plus I can't save with the allowance i have now plus the transportation, food, dance fund, class fund...I can;t even get to buy stuff that I want. I also need more dance outfit (everytime where the same old clothings for dance...sian ), need more shoes (one spoil after the other), shampoo is finishing, cosmetics are finishing, bags are spoiling.... How can I don;t havbe a job to help me have extra income?

Ok I shall stop thinking of money, it is bad. I don't want to be someone who only loves money. Nope, there are still lots of things around me that I should love not money...

Currently also need to choreo another dance for church. Now that Verena gonna join us i guess that things will not be as difficult as i thought it will be. Now that I have two dance to choreo I have no nothing to say. Not good in choreoraphing but will always try my best to do my best and be my best. If I have put in all my effort, there is nothing for me to regret about. I shall continue to do my best....

Graciousstar

Is it you or it is just me?

I don't feel right

insercuritites?

high expectancy?

thinking too much?

I tried to make things better

but it was so shortlived

this is not what i want...

Wished you know what is happening.

Wednesday, August 13, 2008 { 10:14 PM }

HAPPY BIRTHDAY WEIREN!

Went to Shah's house to chill today. Played risk, watched tv, eat, played soccer... Well, first holiday. We also did went to library to read books and Keegan was sleeping in the end. So we headed home. Nothing much today. First time holiday miss school sia...sian.

Graciousstar

As I look back on all that's happened..

growing up, growing together, changing you, changing me --

there were times when we dreamed together,

when we laughed and cried together.

As I look back on those days,

I realize how much I truly miss you and how much I truly love you.

The past may be gone forever..

and whatever the future holds,

our todays make the memories of tomorrow.

So, my lifetime friend,

it is with all my heart that I send you my love,

hoping that you'll always carry my smile with you,

for all we have meant to each other

and for whatever the future may hold.

{ 12:50 AM }

Tuesday, August 12, 2008 { 4:05 PM }

W15E YOU ARE THE BEST! :)

Sunday, August 10, 2008 { 5:26 PM }

HAPPY BIRTHDAY SINGAPORE!
It was supoose to be yesterday but yea...
:P

Friday, August 08, 2008 { 11:30 PM }

Class today was fun and relaxing. Played a few games. All of us have to do individual presentation where we onli need to present one of the topics in 3 slides. All of us its own creativity to make the slides interesting. We also need to present what we have learnt from one classmates. Actually we learnt from each other and I do learnt a lot from everyone in the class but I chose KahWan. Somehow she just have that x factor that I admire. Anyway, I also didn't expect people to talked about me. BIG THANKS TO SAMANTHA, CARMEN, KHEE TENG, AND SHAUN. ( hopefully i didn't left out anyone:P) Faci also paste a piece of paper on our back and we will write on each other's back. I shall keep them in my wallet, to remind me that I have such great classmates :)

Each of us are suppose to write something about that person on their back. Guess what? Quite a number of people wrote on my back "last long with Mr Chan"...

Class gathering in lecture room

Dancing :D

Had fun chatting with them after the gathering

I so looking forward for today as we had class gathering. I know it is going to be a sad day but this class gathering is meaningful as it shows us being together in this 16 weeks. Seriously in this 16 weeks, it has been one of the best days in my life, or maybe the BEST. Yeap, I didn't want to come RP in the first place, but having these classmates, it all worth while. I still remember the first timeI step into the class, the first time I eat with my classmates, the first time I get an A for daily grade, the first time I had my UT, the first time working with different people everyday......and also the first time of being in a relationship. There is seriously too much memories we share in this 16 weeks and I going to carry them with me for the rest of my life. I never expected us to be so close together. I so going to get the videos and the presentations from shaun. It is so well-made, and it also contains all of our 16 weeks of memories inside too! Yes, I cried during the gathering, is just too painful to even say the word "goodbye""take care". We shall always stay in contact forever...

Xian Wen & Weijing: Class without you guys can be boring. Thanks for making the class so fun and happy :)

Shaun: Thanks for being the organiser for our class. All the gatherings we had are so fun! Creative guy! Always make skits so interesting and funny to lighten the class up.

Hong ling: I realised that we hhad not been same team that often. However, I enjoy being with you. Stay happy always! love ya! :)

Samantha: Stay cheerful and be more outspoken. This is RP where we have to speak out more. Anyway, smile suits you the best so always hang that smile on your face. You look pretty :)

Carmen: So happy to have you in class. Now anything that is related to korea you will be the first thing in my mind. haha...and you dance well. Stay cheerful :D

Joycelyn: haha..up till now I still dun quite get it why people call you alien sia...anyway you dance well and stay happy.

ZiHui: My first friend I made in RP. You did become more outspoken since the first day of school. I will remember your staring eyes :P

Shah: Thanks for being one of my bestest in w15e. Dun forget me k? Love you so much

Salih: Sorry for calling you uncle :P but well, stay 16 :D A smartass guy that most of us look up to :p

Sorry I didn take pictures with you guys:P

Shuai Shuai: Hello! Must miss us k? Ur the best!

Zhang Ying: Why never come school for so LONG? but we will not forget you too :)

Nurmani: the library girl in our class:P see you in library :D

Chien Jun: Well, you are the well known auntie pao in our class:p Will think of you when Im eating pao :P hehe...

Khee Teng: Mr Late cum Mr quiet. Speck out more and dun always be late lahhhh...

Kahwan: All the guys in our class are scared of you sia but well you are a nice girl and hope your future job dream will come true. However, dun scare away your next classmates:P

YanJin: Three words for you...very noisy boy :P

YeeYong: Yong 20 years old liao don't act so immature lah. haha...still remember the incident where you rolled your chair all the way downstairs then up again...haha...

Hayatee: "this is madness!?" I will remember this line. I love the glasses you wore today:p looks cute, toot, and funny :)

Raudaah: Always will remember your laughter. Stay cheerful always :)

Keegan: My best buddy! Be more confident in yourself lah. Just remember you can call me anytime you need help. I will TRY not to pang sei you:P Love ya! AND DUN YOU DARE FORGET ME.

Last but not least...WesleyChanLame \Lame: Do I need to say more? I love you! :D

What are we looking at?

I love you guys...w15e!

To my dear w15e:
Even though we still have to be seperated into different classes
but our hearts shall never be apart
the memories we share
shall be with us forevermore
w15e is more than just a wise class
we are practically like a family
we shall stay together always and forever...

Graciousstar

And so we talked all night about the rest of our lives

Where we're gonna be when we turn 25

I keep thinking times will never change

Keep on thinking things will always be the same

But when we leave this year we won't be coming back

No more hanging out cause we're on a different track

And if you got something that you need to say

You better say it right now cause you don't have another day

Cause we're moving on and we can't slow down

Our memories are playing like a film with no sound

And I keep thinking of the night in June

I Didn't know much of love, but it came too soon

And There was me and you, and then it got real blue

Stay at home talkin' on the telephone and

We would get so excited, then we'd get so scared

Laughing at our selves thinking life's not fair

And this is how it feels

As we go on, we remember

All the times we had together

And as our lives change, come whatever

We will still be, friends forever

So if we get the big jobs and we make the big money

When we look back now, will that joke still be funny?

Will we still remember everything we learned in school?

Still be trying to break every single rule

Will little brainy Bobby be the stockbroker man?

Can Heather find a job that won't interfere with her tan?

I keep, I keep thinking that it's not goodbye

Keep on thinking it's a time to fly

And this is how it feels*
La, la, la, la; yeah, yeah, yeahLa, la, la, la,
we will still be friends forever

Will we think about tomorrow like we think about now?

Can we survive it out there?

Can we make it somehow?

I guess I thought that this would never end

And suddenly it's like we're women and men

Will the past be a shadow that will follow us round?

Will these memories fade when I leave this town

I keep, I keep thinking that it's not goodbye

Keep on thinking it's a time to fly