In dance, I was thinking of my genre to be street jazz, waacking and hiphop. I did try to train, be it taking eatra classes from dance schools or even tried dancing at home. There was once i even asked a friend out to dance together. Apparently, my sickness got in the way, in the end I didn train as much. Now that I have recovered, I would like to get back on track training. However, a waacking 1vs1 competition is coming up. I thought it would be a good opportunity even though I may still be new to this genre. I'm still thinking whether I would like to join. To think of it, everytime I tried freestyling in front of people, I have this super scared feeling inside. I start to sweat. I afraid that I would not be able to overcome my fear in time if I am joining this competition. I still have to take the first step... All in all, I will concentrate on my waacking first, after the competition, I will then train my other genres. Be it I win or not, I just want to take that first step... 
Sometimes I do feel irritated by myself because I felt helpless. In dancing, who would not want to join competitions and win? Even if people don't get to win, but I bet through the process there are alot of love and care among one another. That how bonding comes. And who would not want to be part of a crew? A group of people whom you can dance with, and call them family? I want to, but where can I go? I had, but...I do feel like going back... haiz...important choices in life are never easy to make.Where are you?